My best friend George S knows me far better than Stephen; I believe I know him far better than his wife, no surprise there, she’s a woman.  I should be cast into a lesbian snake pit for that remark, but I won’t take it back.

Once upon a time, on an aircraft yet, Geo set about convincing me that I was dead and that he was the cosmic messenger.  Of course, it was one of those nerdesque Twilight Zone kinds of exchanges at the start, but with a combination of theatrical prowess and a skilled hand on the conversation rheostat, he had me within a micron of going for it.

Apparently, something in my eyes signaled that it was time for him to bail out and say just kidding, but maybe [‘just maybe…’] it was too painful for even a cosmic messenger and he was backing out.  [Cue the theremin]

Yesterday we drove two hours to a museum we’d never visited before to see a show by one of Stephen’s friends, fellow artist Andy Nasisse.

While there in the gallery, we encountered the museum director and she and Stephen immediately engaged each other over the exhibit and Mr Nasisse in general.  A couple of times before quickly giving up, I tried to interject a remark, only to be completely ignored.

The two of them just rattled-on, and I reflected on my ghost-hood, 50 years after that conversation at 35,000 feet.

Our friend Tom O used to introduce his beau as his ‘lover’.  Too in-your-face?

Situationally, today I use ‘partner’ or ‘spouse’ or ‘husband’ referring to Stephen.  ‘Partner’ in uncertain territory, ‘spouse’ when legal union wants to be stated but I sense ‘husband’ may pack the same punch as ‘lover’.

To simplify, since there is ever the possibility I may misjudge my audience in an introductions setting, I’m thinking after 42 years I may revert to roommate’.

What do you think?  Let’s give this a try.

Today, my roommate Stephen gave me a new bird by our artist friend Tex C, to celebrate my all-signs-pointing-to successful second eye surgery yesterday.

Of course, this is one of those gifts you give to your companion when it’s really a gift for yourself.  Feign to deny…

Please enjoy.


I’m fairly confident that I’ve related my Lauren Bacall grudge story here before.  Or, perhaps it was a comment on another blog.  Raise your e-hand if you’ve heard it before.

So, I saw an interview with Ms Bacall wherein the interviewer asked if she still held a grudge against Dorothy Kilgallen for the nasty things she’d written about Bacall’s husband Humphrey Bogart.  With a look on her face somewhere between bewilderment and annoyance she replied, ‘Hold a grudge… she’s dead!’

I found this reaction to be sincerely liberating, that is, until my friend Franklin A said — laughing — that he still holds grudges against several dead people.

The New York Times published a piece entitled ‘Let Go of Your Grudges. They’re Doing You No Good’ last week.  It includes a link to a test-your-own-grudge quiz.


It begins:

“One of my favorite party games is to ask a group of people this simple question:  What is your oldest or most cherished grudge?

Without fail, every person unloads with shockingly specific, intimate detail about their grudge.  Career slights (intentional or not), offhand-yet-cutting remarks, bitter friendship dissolutions; nothing is too small or petty when it comes to grudges.  

One of my favorite answers I’ve gotten to this question came from a friend whose grudge stretches back to second grade.  A classmate — he still remember her full name and could describe her in detail — was unkind about a new pair of Coke-bottle glasses he had started wearing.  Her insult wasn’t particularly vicious, but he’d been quietly seething ever since.”  [etc]


Though I can trump that example — the loathsome Mrs S humiliated me twice in front of my entire kindergarten class — my current ‘most cherished’ grudge falls in the ‘offhand-yet-cutting’ category.

Stephen had become aware of a booking at the Hodgson Concert Hall on campus on the day of the performance, and had me call an acquaintance, an employee of the concert hall, to ask how purchasing unused subscription tickets was handled at the will call.  I left a message.

When I saw Bobby T in the lobby — we’d already bought tickets at that point — I greeted him and said I’d left a message.  He replied, ‘Yes, got it. I’m just sick to death of people calling me at the last minute looking for free tickets’, turned and walked off.

Out of curiosity, the other day I looked online to see when the concert in question had taken place.  Turns out it was eight years ago.  Now, who takes the most heat, the loathsome Bobby T for the rancid remark, or me for remembering it?

BTW, a couple of decades ago, I was visiting my aunt in a nursing home, and discovered that the loathsome child-humiliator Mrs S was also a resident.  Though according to friend Franklin this should have no impact on my grudge, she is apparently now dead.

For the record, I had absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with that…

Our friend Franklin sent this photo; I have no idea from whence it came.  I suspect the internet, which, if you didn’t know, is awash with this sort of thing…

I have good news in my life, which I will share anon.  If you say you’re interested, whether you mean it or not, I promise to post additional pictures of this ilk…

After the previous post, you deserve something gay, as in ‘brightly colored’.

A ‘folk artist’ and musician of our acquaintance who goes by ‘Tex’ (I’ve never asked him how that came about, though it’s the kind of snoopy question I might ask) created the work pictured here, enamel on tin, entitled ‘Spirit Bird’.

I once praised him on the precision of his painted lines, to which he replied that it was just ‘obsessivity’.  Wish my own produced pretty things.  Well, once in a great while, it does…

Tex is the nicest and gentlest person I know.  Image clickable.

As I’ve said before (that could cover a lot of territory), I find it a bit unseemly to parade one’s ailments on a blog.  That said (again), it appears I’ve amassed a small collection of just such posts, most recently one in January.

This post, I’m pulling out all the stops.  Well, not a l l of them.

Almost four weeks ago, I had cataract surgery on my right eye.  (Surgery on the left eye TBD.)  Everyone I know who has had this procedure has said it’s a piece of cake, results like Dorothy stepping from her dreary Kansas house into Oz.

 This has not been my experience.

I apparently have something called posterior capsule opacification, allegedly a common post-cataractectomy situation.  In early May I will endure a procedure to correct this — also characterized as a piece of cake.

I’ve heard ‘piece of cake’ before.

Cataracts and posterior capsule opacification become annoying and ultimately debilitating with light sources within one’s field of vision.  Everything becomes indistinct, with a haze around it, rather like closeups of Lucille Ball in ‘Mame’ (hopefully you don’t know what I’m talking about with that example…).

As Marshall McLuhan pointed out, staring at a TV screen is fundamentally staring into a lightbulb.  For months I’ve been essentially unable to read anything on the web, and have composed a handful of posts on Domani Dave in a word processor with the text size turned up to ‘real big’, like your Large Print Editions of books.

Poor Dave

Today — April Fool’s Day — is the 42nd anniversary of Stephen’s and my first date.  You’ve been told this at least ten times, the age of this blog, so one might well imagine there’d be calendars marked, cards, etc, but nevermind…

Last night, I had a dream which did not rise — or sink, rather — to the level of nightmare, that involved (short version) a stranger with designs on our house clandestinely changing the lock on the front door.

What do you think it means?  My own fallback in the interpretation of dreams is frequently seven years of plenty and seven years of famine, but this may just be my being lazy.

I await your analysis, but won’t hold my breath, if expecting you to remember April First is anything to go by…

Our friend Lynn H is ‘mindful’ of fashion.  She’s ‘sleek and chic and magnifique’, which in addition to being true, saying so also supports my contention that if it weren’t for lines and terms stolen from movies and plays, I’d be a semi-mute.

Miss H recently retired from a career in medical administration, and having nothing whatsoever to do with her professionalism, I’m sure it was somewhat of a relief for her coworkers from the standpoint of her having set the bar so high for office attire.

For several years Lynn gave me a magazine subscription to Town and Country, admitting that it was a publisher twofer renewal thing, not an attempt on her part to reeducate me to the finer things in life.

When I finally confessed to her that I felt something akin to embarrassment for the people who allow themselves to appear on the pages of the magazine, she decided to switch me off to Vogue, also a twofer situation for her.

I shan’t reveal to her that the issues tend to pile up still in their mailing wrappers, because eventually I do leaf through them a couple at a time before they hit the recycling bin.

The other day, I tackled the at-least-an-inch-thick anniversary issue which always requires a real commitment.  I routinely even with the less exhausting issues rip out the scent sample pages and place them here and there around the house, which nicely whores-up the place for a couple of days.

Click on the image below for a webpage about designer Cristóbal Balenciaga (1895-1972) who “had a reputation as a couturier of uncompromising standards and was referred to as ‘the master of us all’ by Christian Dior.”

See below what appears representative of the House of Balenciaga in Vogue these days.  WTF.  Do not tell me that Señor Balenciaga is not twirling in his grave.

Growing up in ‘the South’, I was exposed to many… mmm… ‘colorful’ expressions.  The expression used in the title is oddly enough not one of them.  I picked up this one from my friend George S, a native of the state of Maryland.

Of course, my friend Bill P of New Paltz NY would argue that Maryland belongs ganged with Georgia under the heading ‘the South’, but that would just be his being very ‘Northern’.  I steadfastly refuse to use the term ‘Yankee’, though Bill P did once call me ‘Rebel scum’, which was fundamentally, let’s agree, ungenerous.

I’ve not once in my lifetime been led to believe that snakes might actually have penises, consequently I have never researched the matter.  If snakes are in fact lucky enough to have them, I’m going to stick with guessing they are crooked.  What about you?

Give it some thought and get back to me.

The Academy Awards are tonight.

When I was a youth, and a pre-youth and post-youth (for a while), I would be fixated on the Oscars around (only) the time of their presentation.  Eventually one year I missed them, having completely forgotten they were upcoming.  What a relief.

This year, even though I’m bored to death, I won’t watch the Oscar ‘show’.  I’ve only seen Roma, which has been all the rage this past year.  Stumbled the other day onto a broadcast of the other year’s all-the-rage, La La Land, and I must confess I enjoyed it quite a bit.  On the whole, I’d rather enjoy a movie than endure one

Fifty years ago, I had a part-time job as a projectionist in an actual movie theatre, outfitted with old behemoths of 35 millimeter projectors with white hot arc light chambers, ten-pound CinemaScope lenses and all the rest.

The job was rather exhilarating — and for a while, terrifying — at the time, because one is absolutely in charge of the audience’s experience, an awesome responsibility.  I was very conscientious.

I have known a few managers of brick and mortar cinemas in my life, and they all maintain that projectionists are an odd lot.  I am proud [it’s true] to claim the brotherhood.

Here is a short video which exposes my focus on the subject of the motion picture.  You will either find it interesting, or five-ish minutes of your life wasted.

By the way, I did not die this past Wednesday during my heart procedure, thanks to my cardiologist, who by all accounts is brilliant, and by my own account also extremely cute.  I tell you the second bit to remind you that I am still cheap and shallow.  In that order.

Why am I telling you this?

I started blogging in 2009, but in October 2016, I ditched the previous posts in a fit of cyber housecleaning. Some of it was really nice writing, but alas, as my old friend Susan once said: ‘Compulsion is a cruel master’.

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